A seven month old baby boy in mother’s womb.....
My father was extremely happy today. After all, I was coming to be a part of the family. The doctor had told him to purchase the things in blue and he was on top of the world. But , I saw my mother. She was sad and blank as if not so happy. She was looking very tired.
“Mamma are you not happy?” I asked
“Of course I am happy, very happy.” She replied in a feeble
voice
“But your eyes look so sad. It seems as if something is bothering
you deep within. What is it? You can tell me mamma”.
“You won’t understand”. She replied
“May be I won’t understand, but I want to share my mother’s pain.
Now will you please tell me?”
I wanted to know, why is my mother not as happy as my father
"Your father killed your 3 elder sisters, even before I
could take them in my arms. I was so helpless; I could not save them being a mother.
I cried, I begged, fell on his feet but he, like a heartless father buried them”.
My mother was crying bitterly
“What? Why
and how and…?” I was shocked to hear that.
She was even more upset recalling the past and had tears in her
eyes.
“Leave it, I told you….…you won’t understand.”
“Mamma please… I want to know ".
She finally gathered the guts to tell me.
“I don’t know; whether your mind has developed that much so as to
understand all that I will be saying. But I think, I should tell you what you
will go through once you step out. Listen. Had your sisters lived, we would
have to spend a lot on their upbringing. Their studies, marriage, and future
.And probably would not have been allowed to go out to work also, no
matter how talented they might have been."
“But mamma, the same things you will have to do for me also. Then
what is the difference?” I was unable to understand what was so difficult.
“My beloved, after marriage also we would have to take care of
their extended family.”
“OK mamma. But, those things you will have to do for me also unless I start earning. And when
I get married, you will have to take care of my extended family also. I am not
getting it. What was so difficult in letting my sisters live? And you know what
mamma, as far as I have noticed things happening, daughters leave their
parents’ home after marriage and barely ask anything unless pressurized.
But the sons stay together with the parents and keep bothering for property and
finance. They keep demanding for their extended family. Is this not the truth?
I know it is. I have seen our neighbors. These are not genuine reasons you
are making me understand. Give me the one that I can admit.”
“You won’t spare me today. What has happened to you? Why are you
bothering me so much?”She said.
“Mamma ,I want to know the reason behind such big and illegal
decision.” I was adamant to know.
“My son there is many more things. You don’t get into all this, we
are happy that you are arriving soon.”
“No mamma, I won’t let you leave me in this situation. I want an answer.
What made my mother so helpless that she was a part of such a heinous crime?”
“How do I make you understand?”She was getting depressed.
“You have to…please.”
“OK listen; there are wolfs in this society that want to have
sister’s flesh.” She started explaining
“Wolfs? What wolfs mamma?”
I was curious
“The sick people, who think that girls are something they can get
easily and want to get them, eat them and play with them.”
“But this is not fair. How can anybody be so cruel so as to think
the little angels their own property? GOD has made everybody
equal and everybody has the right to live the way they want.”
“You are right my son,but the world is so,what can we do?”
“Oh mamma, this is injustice. Instead of killing the sisters, kill
the wolves so that the sisters can roam freely anywhere and do whatever they
want to."
“When I come in this world, will I also be a wolf?” I asked her in dismay
“No my son, I will teach you how to behave with the girls.”
“But I will be looked upon as another wolf in the society by default.
Won’t I?” I was upset.
“May be, some fingers will point at you also.”
“So, it’s me…the boys who have created such a bad environment for
the girls. So, basically the boys have no right to be a part of the world.”
She got frightened. “No baby, don’t think like that. The boys are always
welcomed and so are you.”
“No mamma I don’t want to come in this society that is doing
injustice to all my sisters. I cannot come and face all this.”
My mother was trying hard to make me understand
“Oh, please. Only 2 months are left and we all are eagerly waiting
for you.”
“No mamma, this time…I will choose. Who are they to choose every
time…and for everyone? Yes, I know it will give a lot of pain to you, but still
…I will have to do it. Once a lesson should be taught to them, and mamma I have
chosen not to be a part of this self-centered world.”
“What are you planning to do, you are hurting me.”
She was in pain.
“I am sorry mamma, but I am going in a deep sleep. Please forgive
me. I love you.”
I decided to close my eyes forever in the womb itself
My mother laid resting along the wall in shock and distress. My
father came closer to her and asked what had happened and how. Soon he could
make out the situation and gazed at my mother in fury. He cried loud like a
looser and stood begging again in front of GOD.
